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I'm beginning to think the world is full of idiots.
Alright. Usually I would friend lock this, but I'm feeling tired, cranky, and very apathetic to it all.

First of all, is it just me, or are people fucking idiots. I mean, seriously. I've been offline for how long? My last post was a voice post on May 2nd, and before that, my actual post-post was on the same day. Wow, almost two weeks. If you haven't figured it out, I haven't had the time to read everyone's messages. When I finally do, I start with deviantART and then Y!gallery, because it takes longer going through my hundreds (literally) of pictures to view, then their journal entries, and then I read LJ.

Alright, while going through Y!gallery, I run into this little gem:


From Mina's Y!gallery post, if you have it, it can be found here. For those that don't:

Rant ahead, fair warning. If it will make anyone feel better, blame it on my advanced state of Holy Shit I Almost Died Last Night Syndrome

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Yanno, it's really bad when your IRL friends make less of an effort to make sure you're okay than Internet friends. Now, let me explain this better. So i don't get trolled or flamed or anything.

Internet friends are fantastic! but they all have lives of their own, same as IRL friends, so sometimes communication is spotty and I get that. I understand fully how Life can get you too busy to pick up a phone or something... But not hearing from your IRL friends for several weeks is disheartening, and it just makes one feel even worse when an Internet friend who lives in Colorado calls, even though they are up to their neck in take home finals, to make sure you're still alive and not rotting in a hospital bed somewhere or are dead.

The phone call from my Internet friend made me very happy... And to be honest I was a little teary eyed and touched that he'd take time out of his ridiculously hectic life to spend two minutes making sure I was alright...

Long of the short of it... My IRL friends don't really have any excuse, seeing as I made a post about what happened on my Live journal, as well as a missive about me missing Girl's Night if they didn't move it to a better day for everyone. Thus far, the entry has been up more than twelve hours and I've still not heard form anyone. Only one of them doesn't really have internet access (and thusly is let off the hook) and the others are compulsively checking their LJs and crap. (AKA not being given much slack)

Shitty of me? I don't care. I bend over backwards for my friends when they hurt, or when it seems they need some support and bolstering... and aren't pushing people away to be antisocial, But most of the time it does not get returned. I'm tired of it. I am not the kind of person to have fair weather friends. I'm just not.

Alright, to make matters worse, I asked her what happened, right? When I was talking to her on aim. What does she do? Automatically log out without saying anything. This means she's usually pissy and throwing a fit. I figured either a.) she did log off angrily, or b.) she blocked me. She didn't block me, which is better than usual.

Now, to figure out what was going on, I backtrack on her LJ to read what was going on. Note, I haven't had time to catch up on LJ yet.


What Mina posted on LJ can be found here, but if you're not on her friend list, I'm just going to post it anyways.

10th-May-2008 01:18 pm - ATTN: </a></b></a>akaneceles, </a></b></a>kurosaki_koi, </a></b></a>jenna_starwort

So, an update for the friends I never see anymore, IRL **HINT!** Work's got me working every blessed weekend now, So unless Girl's night gets moved, I will not be able to come again for an extended period of time. I work evenings mostly and ALWAYS have Saturdays off and one other day during the week. Usually I am working 12-5 on Fridays as well (lunch time to five PM that is) As for Life Update. I had a SERIOUS allergic reaction to some glass cleaner at work and had to go to the E.R. last night. I was given an IV stint and given two kinds of steroids and So much benedryl a guy Kingpin's size would have been high... So you can imagine how *I* was after that dosage. I'm fine now and am cleared for work tomorrow. And now?! GO SEE IRON MAN!!!!

My reply, on both:

I'm just going to copy and paste this from LJ:

Alright. First off, the comment on Y!gallery was uncalled for, and just logging off like that? Childish.

I'm sorry I don't have time to check livejournal anymore, you could have called. Your own fault no one knew about it until later.

Second off, Jenna doesn't check livejournal except maybe every three months? At the most. So, if you're angry with her, you have no right to be.

And Bev? She gets to go to the library to check net, and there's no telling if she was even on or not. Usually she would have commented or called right away.

Your net friends responded quicker BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO LIVES OUTSIDE OF THE INTERNET. Next time, just call. Don't leave an angsty upset message on Y!gallery or livejournal. Get a clue, not everyone's lives revolve around the internet.

You know if I would have found out sooner, I would have said something. I would have called to make sure you were okay. How many times have I offered to come get you in the middle of the nights when you needed it? When Henry drank the aftershave and you called me at work, was I not trying to get out of there so that I could come get you both to take you to the hospital?


Note, it's all the truth. There was only 12 hours between posts. Note that today was the first time in over two weeks I've really gotten a chance to get online. For those who didn't know, as stated in my last voice post, my grandfather had pneumonia. He was in the hospital in ICU, then ICC (I think that's what she called it), and there was a good chance he was going to die. Other than that, I've had to worry about a small family crisis that has erupted. Why? Because my sister got married and didn't tell anyone until two weeks after.

I've been mildly social over overly social in the last month, and that's what she meant by "antisocial". It was a direct attack towards me.

Again, I think it's funny how she expects us to have checked LJ. I don't, nor have I ever, checked LJ compulsively. You guys definitely know that, more than anyone else. I lurk, yes, but it's after a few days of not checking it. What I check compulsively is my e-mail. Again, why didn't she call? If we're such good friends to her that she "bends over backwards for" (ha, total bullshit there), then why was it just a casual LJ post and not a worried phone call?

Personally, it sounds like more drama-whoring. But, that's just my honest opinion.

Now, I'm off to play a little WoW after not playing for almost nearly all week (ugh, I really do hate irl sometimes) and spend time with my fiance. Btw, she got in a fight with me last time we were her house for game. Which has still pissed me and Allan off. I've been spending my quality time with my fiance (who I'm marrying this Halloween, mind you) by playing World of Warcraft. We're a gamer couple, so I don't see a problem with it. Mina blows up at me for this.

The reason being? She never sees us anymore. It's been her fault, to be honest. We moved, months ago, girls night to Sundays. It was more convenient for everyone. It gave us more time to hang out (Jenna works until 4), and another friend of ours had work all week. To add to it, to make life easier for 'Soka's mom, it was convenient as well. Optimally, Saturdays would be best for most people, but it just ended up being Sundays.

I mean, we've called her to try to make plans with her every weekend, but she's had work. I, more than anyone else, should understand that. If you look at previous entries, Wal-Mart was killing me until I asked for Wednesdays off. I mean, how many a girl night did I not go to? But then again, it's girls' night and supposed to be fun and not an obligation. Now, it seems like it's beginning to get tedious. Not always, and not with everyone, but sometimes it just feels like it.

Anyways, to make a long story short, I don't feel bad. I feel sorta angry, but more...sorry for how pathetically dramatic she's being. And what's funny, yeah, I get mad at everyone, but lately it's been mainly her. So, what I'm trying to get at, is...is it really worth it?

Allan's not been too fond of her for a while now, and a few other people are starting to get annoyed by it. And when something like this comes up, as I was talking to someone on the phone about just now, we put it as "Mina's just being Mina." Is all the constant bullshit worth still being a friend over? I can count more times than not that it's been a stupid, pig-headed bullshit reason why we're on bad terms, and each time, I can count, it's been started over stupid internet bullshit.

So, what do you guys think? What should I do?


Alright. My last little rant. Btw, I hate it when people lie to me about something. For example, Mina saying she was playing World of Warcraft. First, she started off by saying she had a lvl 25 paladin. When questioned about it, she said she lvled her by 'killing a lot of monsters'. For those who play, you know that's not how WoW works. It's quest-based, so, yes, you may lvl by doing that, but it would take a month to get to that lvl.

Second, she started trying to talk to me as if she played regularly. We mentioned something about Iron Forge, the main city on Alliance side, and same with Orgrimmar. She stated that she, 'didn't play on the server with that city.' I've caught her in both of those lies, and a few others (mainly the one where I've offered to help her play, and she was like, "Oh, I'm on a different server that nobody else knows about or plays on...").

Now, for those who know me well enough, my final straw usually comes with lying. I hate liars. I hate them so much, it's not funny. It's my one pet peeve. Just don't lie to me. To be honest, there's only one thing I hate worse: A bad liar. Unfortunately, she's both.

And to think, this whole rant started with something I was talking to someone about. Gomen nasai, min'na-san. I think that covers my rant-quota. I plan on making a full update on the family crap sometime this week (most likely tomorrow).

Now, again, I'm sorry you had to go the hospital, Mina. I feel bad. I really do. But only minutely now. I would have felt worse if you wouldn't have started running your mouth and made yourself out to be an idiot ass. If I would have known, like, if you would have done the NORMAL thing and called someone, I would have been there. I would have sent you flowers, or brought you something to cheer you up. But instead? You go online to whine about the fact that your irl friends don't care about you. And to be honest? I think I'm beginning to not. I'm starting to get tired of a lot of your shit (wow, this probably sounds like someone else you know), and I'm beginning to not care. As cold, heartless, and bitchy as it sounds, it's the truth. Each annoying drama-filled comment you make is only making me feel more and more apathetic to your plights of attention.

How about you just grow up and learn that there's a world outside of the internet? You're 27, turning 28 this year. You have a job, a son, a husband. And you have irl friends that really do care about you. Instead, you run to your internet friends to whine and bitch and moan like a 13 year old who is just mad at their parents for a stupid reason. Granted, it's not a stupid reason. Well, most of it is. The only part was that you went to the E.R. Again, we would have been there if you wouldn't have posted it on LJ and been a normal adult and PICKED UP THE PHONE. It's not hard, you've done it before. Hell, if I hadn't answered, you could have left a voice mail. Which I religiously check at the end of the night. I might not always call people back, but if it's important? Yeah, right away. Hell, I would have called you back right after.

The keyword in that is would. Now? I don't know.

Alright. For real. Wow, Marilyn Manson's cover of "Sweet Dreams" makes me a meaner person :D Oh well. Bye for now.