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Alright. Usually I would friend lock this, but I'm feeling tired, cranky, and very apathetic to it all.
First of all, is it just me, or are people fucking idiots. I mean, seriously. I've been offline for how long? My last post was a voice post on May 2nd, and before that, my actual post-post was on the same day. Wow, almost two weeks. If you haven't figured it out, I haven't had the time to read everyone's messages. When I finally do, I start with deviantART and then Y!gallery, because it takes longer going through my hundreds (literally) of pictures to view, then their journal entries, and then I read LJ.
Alright, while going through Y!gallery, I run into this little gem:
( Put behind a cut )
Alright, to make matters worse, I asked her what happened, right? When I was talking to her on aim. What does she do? Automatically log out without saying anything. This means she's usually pissy and throwing a fit. I figured either a.) she did log off angrily, or b.) she blocked me. She didn't block me, which is better than usual.
Now, to figure out what was going on, I backtrack on her LJ to read what was going on. Note, I haven't had time to catch up on LJ yet.
( Again, behind a cut as to not clog up your friend's page )
( My reply, on both: )
Note, it's all the truth. There was only 12 hours between posts. Note that today was the first time in over two weeks I've really gotten a chance to get online. For those who didn't know, as stated in my last voice post, my grandfather had pneumonia. He was in the hospital in ICU, then ICC (I think that's what she called it), and there was a good chance he was going to die. Other than that, I've had to worry about a small family crisis that has erupted. Why? Because my sister got married and didn't tell anyone until two weeks after.
I've been mildly social over overly social in the last month, and that's what she meant by "antisocial". It was a direct attack towards me.
Again, I think it's funny how she expects us to have checked LJ. I don't, nor have I ever, checked LJ compulsively. You guys definitely know that, more than anyone else. I lurk, yes, but it's after a few days of not checking it. What I check compulsively is my e-mail. Again, why didn't she call? If we're such good friends to her that she "bends over backwards for" (ha, total bullshit there), then why was it just a casual LJ post and not a worried phone call?
Personally, it sounds like more drama-whoring. But, that's just my honest opinion.
Now, I'm off to play a little WoW after not playing for almost nearly all week (ugh, I really do hate irl sometimes) and spend time with my fiance. Btw, she got in a fight with me last time we were her house for game. Which has still pissed me and Allan off. I've been spending my quality time with my fiance (who I'm marrying this Halloween, mind you) by playing World of Warcraft. We're a gamer couple, so I don't see a problem with it. Mina blows up at me for this.
The reason being? She never sees us anymore. It's been her fault, to be honest. We moved, months ago, girls night to Sundays. It was more convenient for everyone. It gave us more time to hang out (Jenna works until 4), and another friend of ours had work all week. To add to it, to make life easier for 'Soka's mom, it was convenient as well. Optimally, Saturdays would be best for most people, but it just ended up being Sundays.
I mean, we've called her to try to make plans with her every weekend, but she's had work. I, more than anyone else, should understand that. If you look at previous entries, Wal-Mart was killing me until I asked for Wednesdays off. I mean, how many a girl night did I not go to? But then again, it's girls' night and supposed to be fun and not an obligation. Now, it seems like it's beginning to get tedious. Not always, and not with everyone, but sometimes it just feels like it.
Anyways, to make a long story short, I don't feel bad. I feel sorta angry, but more...sorry for how pathetically dramatic she's being. And what's funny, yeah, I get mad at everyone, but lately it's been mainly her. So, what I'm trying to get at, is...is it really worth it?
Allan's not been too fond of her for a while now, and a few other people are starting to get annoyed by it. And when something like this comes up, as I was talking to someone on the phone about just now, we put it as "Mina's just being Mina." Is all the constant bullshit worth still being a friend over? I can count more times than not that it's been a stupid, pig-headed bullshit reason why we're on bad terms, and each time, I can count, it's been started over stupid internet bullshit.
So, what do you guys think? What should I do?
( Oh, one last little rant. Especially for those WoW Players out there. )
And to think, this whole rant started with something I was talking to someone about. Gomen nasai, min'na-san. I think that covers my rant-quota. I plan on making a full update on the family crap sometime this week (most likely tomorrow).
Now, again, I'm sorry you had to go the hospital, Mina. I feel bad. I really do. But only minutely now. I would have felt worse if you wouldn't have started running your mouth and made yourself out to be an idiot ass. If I would have known, like, if you would have done the NORMAL thing and called someone, I would have been there. I would have sent you flowers, or brought you something to cheer you up. But instead? You go online to whine about the fact that your irl friends don't care about you. And to be honest? I think I'm beginning to not. I'm starting to get tired of a lot of your shit (wow, this probably sounds like someone else you know), and I'm beginning to not care. As cold, heartless, and bitchy as it sounds, it's the truth. Each annoying drama-filled comment you make is only making me feel more and more apathetic to your plights of attention.
How about you just grow up and learn that there's a world outside of the internet? You're 27, turning 28 this year. You have a job, a son, a husband. And you have irl friends that really do care about you. Instead, you run to your internet friends to whine and bitch and moan like a 13 year old who is just mad at their parents for a stupid reason. Granted, it's not a stupid reason. Well, most of it is. The only part was that you went to the E.R. Again, we would have been there if you wouldn't have posted it on LJ and been a normal adult and PICKED UP THE PHONE. It's not hard, you've done it before. Hell, if I hadn't answered, you could have left a voice mail. Which I religiously check at the end of the night. I might not always call people back, but if it's important? Yeah, right away. Hell, I would have called you back right after.
The keyword in that is would. Now? I don't know.
Alright. For real. Wow, Marilyn Manson's cover of "Sweet Dreams" makes me a meaner person :D Oh well. Bye for now.
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